My Quiet Place
My Quiet Place
My family sits to watch tv
But there can be no rest for me.
I sit then hear the call
Of the toddler screaming in the hall.
While I’m up I check the oven
Cuz food is how I show my lovin’.
Then the kitchen needs a scrub
From cooking all the grub.
My butt hits the chair once more
But my brain reminds me of my chores.
Is the kitchen clean? The dog in?
Is there laundry in the washer again?
My mind decides to flip through
The very long list of things to do.
I need to make a menu and feel
Overwhelmed by making meals.
Bed time comes at last!
I want to just relax
With the man of my dreams
But my mind won’t quit, it seems.
Did I lock the door?
Leave the basement lights on once more?
My husband nuzzles me close and sighs
But I hear music when I close my eyes…
There is always a song playing in my head
Even when I’m lying down in bed.
I want to be present with my man
But my mind wanders and I doubt I can.
Am I pretty enough for his eyes?
Can I hide or wear a disguise?
Mentally I can pretend to be
Someone that is much more pretty.
I hate my thinning hair, my gut,
My acne prone skin and big butt.
Is he happy with me or does he also worry
That I don’t have legs like Annie Murphy?
My brain convinces me that it’s my fault
That I look the way I do- like a dolt,
And that if I ate more clean and green
I’d be worth being seen.
Which brings me to think of food…
What will dinner be that’s good?
Will I need to thaw the meat
To have our meal ready to eat?
Sleep finally overtakes me, but dreams
Keep my mind busy all night it seems.
Morning comes and there is light,
But my brain is putting up a fight.
I want to study, to learn and grow,
I want to love God with mind and soul.
I want to know all the things but yet
Can’t get the fog to clear from my head.
Coffee. Food. Please brain, awake!
How much longer will it take?
I want to give Him my very best,
I want to read God’s Word and rest.
My soul longs for the Lord
And to spend time in His word.
But with every line my brain
Goes to all I need to do again.
Homeschool is finally underway,
As we begin our day.
The fog begins to lift
And my mind no longer seems to drift.
I find time to read a verse or two,
Then a bit of a book or a blog view
On the gospel and the law, abuse,
Or the covenant that’s not just for Jews.
I desire to know it all! I need
To understand, and so I read.
But soon thoughts are swirling in my head
That distract from what I’ve read.
But then I look at my family.
My mind quiets to thanking Thee
Of all you have given me
And all the gifts of grace and mercy.
I step outside and tears fill my eyes
As I look at the beauty and the skies.
The creation tells of your glory
And it begs me to think of the story
Of how you made it all and it was good!
And I see You as I walk through the woods.
The golden, ruby, and amber leaves fall
And all I can think is how you made it all.
And in the stillness of this moment, I
Find my mind quiet and begin to cry.
God, you are so good, and kind,
To give me this to cleanse my mind.
No longer am I thinking of all I need to do,
But am simply resting, worshipping You.
Creation is my safe and quiet place
To rest and seek Your face.
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